When I got into the organization where I work, I stayed reserved for some time, choosing to subdue my usual outgoing self in order to study my environment and those I was working with. As time went on, I began to make friends among my coworkers and began to settle nicely in this workplace environment. In fact, I became such a force that I was able to kinda douse homophobia from our space and occasionally liven things up by introducing discussions about sex and sexuality.
Through all this, I noticed that of all my colleagues, the accountant was the nicest to me.
He’s married with kids, and an incredibly nice man, almost to a fault. Everyone in the office, even the married women, loves him. And he is often the go-to person for most people in the office. He was that person you can always count on to make you feel better about yourself, and pretty soon, I found myself always sharing my problems, worries and challenges with him. And he always came through.
He’d give me money whenever I asked, even when it seemed to be inconvenient for him, and he would always see to it that I was fine. Predictably, at some point, this made me start catching feelings for him. 🙈🙈🙈
In December last year, some of us in the office went for a hangout and I went a little too far with my alcohol intake, and began acting up. I would later learn that he took on the responsibility of my care during my inebriation and made sure I was fine despite the fact that I ended up messing up his car.
The fact that he didn’t mind any of this made me fall harder for him.
Recently, I came out to him and he was indifferent about it, only telling me to be careful. Following this though, our friendship has taken a turn so deep that he allows me touch him inappropriately without trying to stop me or giving any averse reaction. He wouldn’t flinch whenever I spank his bum in the office, and when we are alone, he’d allow me fondle his dick. Sometimes, this resulted in him getting a boner. One time, he pecked me, and this emboldened me to give him a quick kiss on the lips on another day.
And yet, whenever I ask for us to see outside the office and hang out, he’d smile and tell me he’s straight and that I should just let things be. He would also add that were I a woman, he wouldn’t think twice before giving me what I want.
The problem is that whenever I try to maintain my distance, he’d come over persistently to try to get our camaraderie back. But the thing with being all warm and friendly with him is that it doesn’t help the feelings I have developed for him.
And those feelings are a disaster waiting to happen. I know this. And I need to do something about it.
Please how do I handle this?
Submitted by Osei