18 responses

  1. Mandy
    April 8, 2017

    Wow.
    This piece is profoundly beautiful.
    ??
    It really isn’t easy being an honest HIV poz guy. The love that’s already hard to find for the average gay man doubles down on its difficulty for the poz guy.

    I admire your strength, Theon. Keep breathing. Keep keeping on.

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    • Francis
      April 8, 2017

      Life would have been a lot less harder for positive guys if ewu GEJ didn’t sign that anti-gay bill as they could freely meet in support group meetings targeted at gay men and hopefully start something there without fear of rejection based on a virus

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  2. Simba
    April 8, 2017

    Everything in life is a risk.. if someone loves you less cus of HIV, that person was never meant to stay. Stay strong, ur Knight in shinning armour shall come. Keep taking ur pills, ask ur Dr about IPT, commerce if u haven’t.

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  3. Colossus
    April 8, 2017

    “You must not have life all figured out. And you don’t always have to be strong about it. There are days when you have to cry because you’ve been strong for too long. When it happens, cry till your heart has shed its last drop. The feeling is cathartic, and the aftermath is that you will find renewed strength to carry on. Whatever you do, just keep breathing.”

    This last paragraph summed it up very adequately. Whatever one goes through, allow it shape you, come out stronger, come out breathing.
    Keep breathing Theon, you’re doing it right.

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  4. mizta dee
    April 8, 2017

    For some reason this piece made me cry.. Keep breathing Theon it only gets better! Martin Luther King Jr.: “If you can’t fly, then run. If you can’t run, then walk. If you can’t walk, then crawl. Whatever you do, just keep moving.”This made my morning! Thank you!!!

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  5. Khaleesi
    April 8, 2017

    Wow, this was such a wrenching, moving piece! Thank you so much for sharing Theon. I have a few poz friends, including a very dear one. I can’t claim to know what they go through but i do know its a hard often painful road. I have also resolved to be there for them no matter the circumstances; no matter how much i have to bend back, because sometimes am all they’ve got … Am all that’s atandimg between them and a total collapse into the deep dark abyss … Continue to be strong, you will emerge triumphant …

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  6. Mitch
    April 8, 2017

    Love! Love! Love!

    This piece says everything and more. Thank you, Theon.

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  7. Somadina
    April 8, 2017

    Theon,

    breathe,

    live,

    be.

    Strength will come to carry on.

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  8. Dickson’ clement
    April 8, 2017

    I am humbled by the intensity of experiences shared on this blog, Theon dear you have touched my heart with this story and the heart of probably a younger gay lad who discovered kito diaries and is captivated by these experiences or… . An older man who is yet to come to term with his Hiv status.
    I applaud you for this bold step.. .
    I know most of us have our own suicide attempt stories. The one who succumbs gets taunted by the public.
    @francis, like the soldier ants there is a way around every thing. Just like we have this online platform.. . There could be a similar initiative for a support group online too.
    The benefits of such cannot be over emphasized,and for even the negative people. It could be an avenue for sober reflection and a checkmate for the risks they are willing to take.

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  9. onikolobo
    April 8, 2017

    This was so touching..

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  10. DarkSide
    April 8, 2017

    Stay strong. I got your back. Always.

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  11. Chiedozié
    April 8, 2017

    ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

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  12. Delle
    April 8, 2017

    You know, I’m stunned. This is beautiful beyond words.

    Thank goodness you know to reach out. I’ve come in contact with people who would tell you they know how to handle ‘their’ problems. They say sharing their problems with other people isn’t cool as they feel the other person has issues of his own. They would rather smile mechanically through the pain.

    Depression is a terrible thing. Not being able to reach out is worse. It’s not easy being a poz gay man, but it can be a whole lot better if you learn to live positively and effectively. Surrounding yourself with people who exude positive energy is primary.

    I love this Theon.

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  13. cedar
    April 9, 2017

    You just said it all dude.
    Keep breathing,
    Inhale,
    A step at a time,
    Exhale.
    Thanks for sharing Love.

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  14. FJ
    April 10, 2017

    Hmmm…God understands even if we don’t. All i can say is…help cometh

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  15. KrestienKristoff
    April 10, 2017

    Beautiful ? ? ?,
    You are strong bro,
    I hope many can tap from this strength.

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  16. el
    April 10, 2017

    Beautiful! Just beautiful. Stay strong Darling Theon.

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  17. Covert
    April 19, 2017

    Hmmmmm. Will soon be 3yrs I found out about my status. Never knew I was this strong. Good thing you are able to cope. Best is to channel that energy and emotions into a course of courses. Mine has been my education.

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