HUMAN
I do not know how to live
I do not know how to exist as a person
All I do well is sleep and be alone
I am mesmerized at the people
Who are able to live each day with such aplomb
Able to find joy and peace in the banal things of this life
Everything is hard, everything is strange, and people scare me
I don’t want them to see the cracks
I am afraid they will see the animal underneath the skin
The heavy breaths beneath the porcelain demeanor
I hold onto myself for sanity, my silence is my strongest grip
Please show me how to do this, how to cope, to survive here
I have been drowning since I was born
My feet don’t move with the surety that humans come equipped with
Please show me how to be happily human.
Written by Jodek
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In the end, you will leave You will say my arms have become thorns Too piercing to hold You will say I am no longer enough to drink in That
For God.
Dear God, I want to kneel before you In humble supplication My mouth, open, a shallow well, a bruised orifice My back bent, forward or backward My eyes closed tight
4 Comments
shuga chocolata
December 16, 06:51“I hold onto myself for my sanity, my silence is my strongest grip.”
I find me in this situation, always and it’s not a good thing.
Absalom
December 16, 07:44Poignant lines. Sigh.
INDIGENE
December 16, 08:50Everything is hard, everything is strange, people scare me.
this line got me.. I fear people and what they can do if they find out who I truly am
Chandler B.
December 16, 13:42Nice. ???
It’d be easier if you look at people and remember they are also broken. Just like you. No matter how perfect their life looks, or how straight, they are broken. We all are.
And act strong. If we act long enough we just might become our act.