JAMES’ JOURNAL (Entry 22)

Blog_KD JournalDecember 4

I’ve got a long list of ex lovers. They’ll tell you I’m insane.

Taylor, you get me so well. My list isn’t as long as yours though. But I still love you.

Anyhoo…I’ve got my phone back and all is right with the world once again. I do hope it doesn’t fuck me up anytime soon again.

I have decided to sing during my faculty week that’s coming up in the next two weeks. I be nervous as hell, but I think it’s time I allowed myself perform in front of a small crowd. I’m not extremely good with the guitar, because I consider my voice my main instrument, but even then, I know people that are waaaay better than me in singing. I was in Port Harcourt recently (don’t ask what I went to do there) and I visited a karaoke bar, and this guy sang three songs and did fabulously well. The bar gave him an ovation and it just made me feel like my voice was bland and boring. Nonetheless, I sang a couple of songs and though it wasn’t exactly a hit, I held my own down.

The kind if singer I hope to be is one that can channel emotion through his voice. Make people feel happy or sad or melancholy and whatnot. Not just someone who can sing and knows how to do riffs and runs. Songs that are memorable to me are those that can channel their emotions to me and I can feel or at least understand what the singer is feeling.

I’ve picked the songs I’d like to sing – Amnesia by Five Seconds Of Summer, and Stardust by Mikka. I can connect to these songs on an emotional level and they seem relatively easy. I’ve done covers of them and people liked them. Maybe if anyone is interested in hearing, they could drop their email addresses with Pinky and I’ll send the file across. But singing a song into a recorder and actually singing to a crowd are two different things. Well… wish me luck and I hope I don’t choke.

Online shopping can be addictive. My mum is out of the country and I’ve been shipping things to her to bring back home for me. I won’t be surprised if my parents cut down my pocket money or I get an interrogation on where I’m getting my money from. I won’t put it past my mum to ask, “I hope it’s not that you are doing that thing and they are giving you money for it,” and I will give her my best innocent look and say, “What thing?” Then skip merrily away with my new found property.

I prefer to buy gadgets over clothes. I have only three pairs of footwear. One for when I want to be cooperate, a pair of All Stars (probably fake), and a pair of fabulous rubber slippers that look like leather (I call them my fabulous slippers). I don’t get people that have more than five pairs of shoes, especially when they use their money to buy them. What is wrong with you people!!!

I be keeping meh hair in a ‘fro and people love it! Me sef, I love it. I’m not one to care about looks (ain’t nobody got time for that!) But once in a while I find a look I like and I stick to it.

One night, I lay up wondering whether secrets are good for a relationship. Like things from one’s past. I think it can be good. As much as it’s great to know all about a person, there’s the slight chance it would get boring, right? But then again, there are some things that shouldn’t be kept from your partner. So I figured it’s just one of those things where moderation comes in. Some things should not necessarily be said. A friend (*coughs*) told me of how he spent the weekend with his boyfriend in a friend’s lovely house. Some weeks later, the boyfriend sort of offhandedly mentioned that he and that friend had shagged many times, and my friend just felt really awkward about it. It might be a bit silly… but I totally see myself in my friend’s shoes. (*coughs again*)

I stop typing here. Reward yourself with a cookie if you read this and didn’t fall asleep. Buh bye.

Written by James

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  1. gad
    December 07, 07:44 Reply

    A diary well kept. A secret divulged to a so called friend might not be safe any longer. It could be used wrongly and comes back to hunt one in the future. Let’s be careful.

  2. B.A.D
    December 07, 08:03 Reply

    u ♥ taylor? #twinsies, talkn of singers dat channel emotion, do u lyk jhené aiko? her music is EVERYTHING & yup, I want ur songs. hw 2 send my email across?
    I ♥ ♥ ♥ gadgets, but I ♥ shoes too & I do own more than 5 pairs. Sorry.
    Finally, I had a similar xprnc 2 urs. went 2 a fuck buddy’s place 4 sex, I’d bn telln him I wantd a 3some, he brings a friend over, I’m alrdy super xcited, we start fuckn & d friend locks d door, then jst sits der watchn fuckn beyoncé videos while we fuck ryt in front of him.
    I’m still not sure hw I feel abt dat nyt. Whether 2 feel awkward, mad, funny or jst erase d memory. Ugh.

  3. Metrosexual
    December 07, 08:44 Reply

    Sweetie, There’s nothing wrong with having more than 5 pairs of shoes…… Coming from a shoe lover…. And I love Amnesia by 5 Seconds of Summer too…

  4. shuga chocolata
    December 07, 09:37 Reply

    James Uh o˚°◦h jame, I do have like 30pairs of footwear kill me yea i wrote that.
    I have a soft spot for footwear and my mum do call me one sane name like that.
    Back to your music collection i know you will break a leg with that song in fact remember to send us an IV on the day you will be performing and we will be carrying our pon pon for you just to cheer you up. Am really not so lucky with online shopping so i have stopped purchasing things online.

  5. Deola
    December 07, 12:23 Reply

    One of the reasons why Taylor swift is so successful i think is not because of her voice, she has a pretty average voice, and she isnt a very good live singer either, but she has this way of communicating with her audience and putting into tunes what most peopele feel. Her songs are relatable. ‘Blank Space’ is amazing, after i downloaded it i listened to it on a loop for about a week!! And then there is ‘all too well’ which is just an ageless classic. Its songs like that that make you wanna listen to her than say an established vocalist like christina aguilera or Jessie J.
    You guys should check out ‘say something’ by a great big world ft christina aguilera. She drops all the riffs amd runs and just sings and its hauntingly beautiful.

  6. Kryss S
    December 07, 12:56 Reply

    Lovely Rambling as always James! Amnesia is a lovely song! Heard it on Rick Dees nd got stuck! Nd yes, we all love d emotions Taylor swift channels through her song. Almost everybody can relate. As for ur cover, wouldn’t mind listening too. Never knew I could sing myself until I sang on radio, got positive reviews nd now I can’t wait 4 weekends to serenade ABJ! Oh, lest I forget, I love shoes oh although I don’t have as much as I would love to(money dey yab man pikin).

  7. Kryss S
    December 07, 12:57 Reply

    @Deola…. Christina slayed “say something”! Had it on repeat when d human being I thought I was in a relationship with told me we couldn’t go on again bcos he was turning straight(is there a button biko? Wanna switch mine too! Mstcheeeww!), I died!

    • enKayced
      December 07, 13:17 Reply

      Looool! You people on KD wee no kee me!
      So someone listens to RickDees as well.
      Anyway, ‘someone like you’ by Adele and ‘Life for rent’ by Dido are some of the songs that I can’t do without.
      Emotion much?

    • Deola
      December 07, 13:55 Reply

      Lol…kryss, you are really something!!! Like I said ‘Say something’ was great because Christina didnt do her usual over singing with the riffs and runs and rolls…she just let her talent shine through and she was mesmerizing, it took me way back to when she sang ‘Beautiful’.
      @enKayceed adele is the queen abeg. She slays everything she touches!!!

  8. daemon
    December 07, 17:45 Reply

    hey james, loved ur writeup, u must really be a fun person, i dont know any karaoke clubbar in port harcourt can u help? plus would love to listen to your song, send to delicious.mike.@yahoo.com

  9. brynix
    December 07, 23:29 Reply

    Been reading your diaries for awhile…… Love the way you ramble from one topic to another….. 1st time commenting though…… I love to sing too…… With a good voice, just don’t know how to do it in public…… You should try the glee cast cover of Shake it Out. Nothing brings out my emotions like it

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