So what can I say… With 2016 coming to an end, I guess all I can do is offer thanks to whatever force it is that rules the universe. Life’s been really full recently, what with a new job, school stress, finally being with the man I love, having to manage the returning patterns of my eating disorder (I’ve lost an extra 4kg since the last time, but I’m more in control now). With the good and bad and how downright unbearable these past few weeks have been… It hasn’t been easy at all, but it’s been worth it.

My family is becoming more tolerant of me with each passing day. Amaka is in a stable relationship finally. I finally found my Man. Marv isn’t exactly who you’d call my perfect gentleman. We’ve been friends for two years, right around the same time I met Alor. And then recently, the tension finally exploded and I said the words to him: “I want you… And not just for a day, but for as long as I live.”

I didn’t know if I meant it. I didn’t know what I was thinking. I just knew what my heart was screaming at me, what I was feeling, that I was yearning to be his. I’d always been, but I kept pushing it off in my quest for the perfect man, ignoring the one I had right in front of me.

“Let’s dance to your tune,” he replied.

And bam! We ended up together officially. I can still remember the laugh on his end, the laugh on mine, the swelling sensation somewhere deep in my heart as I imagined his eye winking behind his glasses as he smiled.

“What of sex? How do we handle it?” he asked.

We burst into a fresh round of laughter. I knew we were thinking the same thing. We both preferred to bottom.

I wiped my eyes as my laughter died slowly. “We’ll figure that out, my love,” I said with an affirming nod. “We’ll figure that out.”

“I’ve got you,” he whispered.

“And I you,” I said so low I wasn’t sure he heard. “And I you,” I repeated long after our call had ended.

I hate to think of the future. It scares the crap out of me, but I’ve taken my leap and from now on, it’s a free fucking fall! I’ll worry about the bottom the closer I get there.

Merry Christmas to you, my darling KDians.

Written by Kainene