FOR AS OFTEN

Taking a cue from the biblical verse usually read before or during the commemoration of the Lord’s Supper in many church assemblies, 1 Corinthians 11: 26 – For as often as you shall eat this bread and drink the chalice – I do remember all the intercourse I have had, the journey of sexual undertakings that brought me to this point in my life.

FOR AS OFTEN as I take these medications, I reminisce on the moments I enjoyed those Ds bare inside me. Oh what pleasure they brought.

FOR AS OFTEN as I take these medications, I take into remembrance the names of all the men I trusted by allowing them go raw into me.

FOR AS OFTEN as I take these medications, I feel a reawakening of the pain those penetrative sexes caused. But in them, I found pleasure. Premium pleasure!

FOR AS OFTEN as I take these medications, I do wish I’d been given the chance to choose if I wanted this cup to be placed before me. I do wish he told me his status and allowed me make a choice of having this virus as a part of me.

FOR AS OFTEN as I take these medications, I wish I listened and followed all the preventive measures and sexual health talks I was given.

FOR AS OFTEN as I take these medications, I take into cognizance the fact that I may never find love on the basis of my truth. For my truth scares and drives love away from me.

FOR AS OFTEN as I take these medications, I do abide by the dwelling of this virus in my body until a cure this way comes.

THE PREACHER: You may now take your meds!

ME: (swallow meds with a glass of water)

HIV may be real, but it is neither a death sentence.

Nor does it hold any real power other than that given to it by ignorance.

Stay safe. Stay protected. And continue to live.

Written by Josh