MILES TO GO TO BECOME MINE

MILES TO GO TO BECOME MINE

The norm is to meet a guy who is tall, dark and handsome. Well, the guy I met is neither. He’s instead a hunky piece of ice cream. We became acquainted accidentally on Facebook. Accidentally, because he bears the same name as a friend I used to have a thing for. We – me and this friend – didn’t end things so well, and so when I stumbled on his Facebook account, without even checking the profile picture, I sent to his inbox a furious one-liner, so he’d know I’d nabbed him. It didn’t take long for me to realize I nabbed the wrong fellow.

Before I could take that foot out of my mouth, we – me and this new friend – had started communicating via inbox. He was very attractive, with the creamiest complexion and the reddest lips I’d ever seen. So of course, I was attracted to him. But you know, I had to go slow, couldn’t afford spilling my feelings out to someone who would turn around and sic the nearest homophobic mob on me.

Our acquaintanceship graduated into a fast friendship like a blur. We got to the point where we became so inseparable. We (well, by we, I mean me mostly lol) didn’t let a day go by without calling or texting. I had all his numbers, his 2go ID (yeah before the raving madness of Whatsapp), and I subtly insinuated an edict for him – that he come online only when I was online myself. I had become so besotted with this guy that I couldn’t bear the thought of anyone else having this close a relationship with him.

And then I went to visit him for the first time at his place. And his girlfriend was around. Drat! Talking about cramping my style. I had to comport myself, and allow myself to be engaged in a nice and easygoing conversation with the two of them, when all I wanted really was to rake my fingernails across that bitch’s face. I must have been giving off my vibes of discomfort, because after she left, this my brother from another mother, who had apparently noticed that I’d been uncomfortable all through the female’s stay, wanted to know why. He asked. I answered that I’d preferred to spend the time alone with him, more than in the company of someone else. Two is sexy, three is a crowd, you know.

And to that, he asked without preamble, “This one you want me alone, are you gay?”

It was the moment of truth. My heart pumped and I remained silent for what seemed like eternity. I was warring within myself over what response to give. I could either lie and we’d move on from the issue and I’d miss this chance to show him who I truly was, or I’d tell the truth, hope for the best and probably be rewarded by a feisty shag for my truthful effort. (lol) I mean, we had become close, very close, so I figured he’d not be too shocked or upset by my admission of being queer.

So I mentally crossed my fingers and told him the truth.

The understanding friend I thought would reveal himself didn’t happen. There was no ‘Oh really? Wow. Ok, cool with me’. No. He was furious. He was mad. He felt betrayed, like the best friend he had had done something bad to him. Suffice it to say that that visit didn’t end well. I left his place very miserable. And the consequent events weren’t a boost to my emotions either. He ceased all communication with me for nearly a month, and all through that time, misery became my company. I couldn’t function properly. I thought I’d lost him for sure. And that was when I came to a horrifying realization that I’d fallen in love with a straight guy.

After close to a month had passed, he finally made contact again. He wanted us to be friends again, but he had an agenda this time. He was determined to change me. (lol) He didn’t know what he was in for. And he tried, oh how he tried. At every point in time, he begged me to quit liking boys. He cajoled and threatened. He went the God route, and he quoted scriptures, and when I still wouldn’t budge, he shunned me again, and didn’t talk to me, this time for about three weeks.

And I was plunged back into misery. This time, it was so aching that I actually cried at intervals. I begged all the powers-that-be to bring him back to me, and for them to remove my gayness if that was going to be the going rate for having him in my life.

Well, the gods must have been listening to me, because three weeks later, (no, they didn’t remove my gayness lol) he came back again. He’d made his peace with who I was and was determined to accept me the way I was. He also came back curious. He didn’t avoid the issue of my sexuality, like most straight friends gay people have, who know about their true nature, do. He had questions, and he asked them. He downloaded – or rather, I downloaded for him – gay porn, and he watched with me, all the while asking questions like ‘Doesn’t that hurt?’ ‘How can that guy’s dick fit into that tiny asshole?’ ‘Does the top guy actually enjoy being sucked?’ And that was when I interjected, saying, ‘Yes, of course he enjoys being sucked. In fact, if I suck you, you will never want your girlfriend to suck you, ever again.’

He looked at me like I was crazy, and I laughed.

After a couple of weeks, he asked me if I was still hooking up with guys. I answered in the affirmative. And he asked what it would take to stop other guys from touching me. With my heart suddenly beating with hesitant expectation, I replied with forced glibness that he’d have to be my boyfriend.

The seed was sown. And I waited for it to germinate. And germinate it did. One night, when I went to his place after dinner at mine, he asked me if I wanted him. Well, hello?! Is the sky blue? Is Obama black? Is Denrele a raging queen? I was shocked, but I found my voice quickly enough to say yes. My heart was pumping really fast in that moment after I said yes and he stared at me. I felt heady, as though I was about to hyperventilate. Say something! Do something! Please! My mind raged at him.

And he finally did something. No, he didn’t do it the way Hollywood would, by pulling me into his arms and planting his lips on mine in a passionate kiss, complete with background music swelling. He instead unzipped his crotch, pulled out his dick and gave it to me in that ‘do with it what you will’ manner. I didn’t need any other encouragement. I took it and went to work. I sucked him with all I had. I pulled out all the stops. I did handwork, mouth work, tongue work, I was impressing myself. I was like a hairdryer I was blowing so hard. He thrashed and moaned in pleasure, as I sucked him. Oh yes, baby. I told you I’d suck you so much you won’t want your girlfriend’s mouth anywhere near your dick.

He did try to suck me too. It was a poor effort, with him nibbling at my dick like it was a particular brand of lollipop he wasn’t sure he liked. But he tried, and I was there to guide him. And then there was the sex. I was both lover and teacher. I showed him all the moves. I wrapped the condom lovingly over his rock-hard dick, and I taught him about lubing and fingering me to prepare my ass for his entry, and then I guided him ever-so gently in. And it felt good. After I moaned his name and thrust my hips up against him, he leaned in, turned my face around to meet his intense stare and before he started moving, said, “If any other guy ever touches you after now, I will kill him.” And he proceeded to give me the sex that would be the first of many others.

And that is how I found the love of my life.

Written by Blue Fox

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40 Comments

  1. therealsalte
    June 04, 05:44 Reply

    Wow! Interesting. I am now going to get myself a straight lover who will love me like no other. Hmmm… Highly interesting.

  2. KingBey
    June 04, 06:07 Reply

    Na wah…lmao @ Is Denrele a raging Queen…well, that was a bit of a risk. I wouldn’t take that kind of risk..outing myself to a straight guy in Nigeria? Nada…

    • trystham
      June 04, 07:43 Reply

      Preach!!!
      Really though, after stuff like dis, I wonder if the battle against homophobia isn’t being won

  3. fabby
    June 04, 06:22 Reply

    Hmmmmmm…interesting….so are u both still togeda or wat….buh dat was one hell of a risk u took ma sister….

  4. blue fox
    June 04, 06:46 Reply

    yes fabby we are still together talk of ties that bind

  5. blue fox
    June 04, 06:50 Reply

    and yes I’ve taken risks for real, I’ve got 2 straight guys to my name

    • kendigin
      June 05, 06:53 Reply

      Sweetie, if u got them…they certainly aren’t str8

  6. QueerBoi
    June 04, 07:23 Reply

    First of all.. The straight dude is prolly Bisexual or a closet gay. Cuz u said “We got to the point where we became so inseparable” and he didn’t suspect a thing? He’s prolly a good actor too pretending nt to knw hw to suck a dick. *abeg, I said “prolly”. Buh really, u could av just asked him abt his sexual orientation before going to his place. It won’t have hurt u to hint a lil that u prefer d company of men than women. And more importantly.. Why would y’all call a guy “sister”?

    • luke
      June 04, 09:42 Reply

      Why is it that when a straight guy gets converted, some of you have to go all “he being gay or bi” along, this goes to show how less most of us know about the people around us, and yes they are straight people that have come over to our side of the fence and stay there, and straight guys make friends with other guys and become very close, some call it best buddies, we gays call it falling for a guy, l have had straight guys loved me and done everything to keep me close with out sex, it just that thought that matters to some people and l have equally had a few share of the straight sex also. My point here is when a guy come over to our side, does mean he was gay along, it means the mind is a very curious and most power part of our body system.

      • QueerBoi
        June 04, 09:52 Reply

        Straight guys get converted, buh gay guys don’t? And u think there’s nothing wrong with ur theory. I’m very sure I highlighted the fact that I said “prolly” meaning probably.. Probability!!!!!!! Not affirming that it is so or it isn’t. Chai!

  7. La Roche
    June 04, 08:14 Reply

    Wow! How…..nice? Always great when people find love….

  8. Deola
    June 04, 11:09 Reply

    I smiled a lot at this piece, and my heart also raced when you were about to tell him. This was well written. Side note: I do believe that all this tags aren’t necessary. He loves you, you love him. Who the fuck cares about his sexual orientation.

  9. alpha papi
    June 04, 11:13 Reply

    How can u be jealous of his Gf…r u dat gay?ur a thirsty nd desperate whore smh.

    • KingBey
      June 04, 13:41 Reply

      Your just a sick dude. I will be totally shocked the day you will get to make a reasonable comment on this blog….I don’t know how you got into here in the first place. Damn u!

  10. lluvmua
    June 04, 13:27 Reply

    *whoa* #hard on . Very nice story *nice 1 gurllllll* wish I can b dis lucky!!!

  11. Chizzie
    June 04, 18:16 Reply

    yes @KingBey his comments can be a bit dim sometimes

    this is a good article, but I feel things are becoming a tad redundant here.

    PinkPanther, the blog is brilliant, but how abt you incorporated other things in it every now and then to liven things up?

    You could bring up topics for debate, or have like an ask PinkPanther section, something like that. Something that doesn’t revolve around the boy-meets-boy theme dt is becoming commonplace.

    Gay guys are innovative, creative and eclectic, this blog should display of all that.
    like I said earlier, brilliant blog and I am arguably ur biggest fan. 🙂

  12. kendigin
    June 05, 07:03 Reply

    The problem with “converting” supposed str8 dudes is that wen the going gets tough, the will blame u that u are the source of all their problem. They will blame all their misfortunes and problems on d fact that they slept with a guy, and naturally u are the originator of the “curse”.

    I really think its stupid attempting to “convert” smone. There too many gay pple in the world to waste tym and effort on a confused closeted homophobe, just for d pleasure of sex.
    And btw, he’s maybe the love of ur life, but his girlfriend will always be the love of his. Simply bcos she is :”normal”, unlike you. Point is in the end you have more to lose

    • trystham
      June 06, 17:48 Reply

      This makes a helluva lot of sense. I am never one for the the stupid conversion thingy. It is part of the reason gay dudes are abhorred here. Straight ppl be thinking we are on a mission to change the sexual orientation of the rest of the world…by hook or by crook. I will not blame anyone for their homophobia o. If they are interested, let them surf d internet in their own time. Not u shoving your hormone induced erections in their faces.

  13. pinkpanthertb
    June 05, 07:07 Reply

    I don’t get it. So the general consensus is that any straight guy that was converted to start screwing guys was always a closeted homosexual? Really? He couldn’t have simply being a straight guy who decided to take a fancy to dicks and ass?

    • QueerBoi
      June 05, 07:46 Reply

      No offence to the bro that wrote this story buh so many things dnt add up. Why would a hitherto straight guy say “if any gay guy ever touches u after now, I’ll kill him”?after penetrating a gay guy for d first time? And then he became ur boyfriend I guess? So what happened to the Girlfriend he had? Truth is a real straight guy can’t get hard for another nigga. U prolly have other straight friends, trying stripping in front of em or seducing them and observe their reactions. That’s how straight people react to gay advances not bringing out their organ in a do-what-u-want-with-it manner. Honestly in my opinion, straight guys can/may have sex with homo’s out of curiosity (bi-curious) buh if they r really straight that’s it. That one time and they’re done. Its like a gay guy being with a woman.. Yea. U’ll bang her. Will u enjoy it? Hell no! If u do.. Means u nt gay u Bi. same applies to d straight dudes.

    • kendigin
      June 05, 08:05 Reply

      Really?? Like really??? Bcos that wld mean you can also convert a gay guy to str8!
      Personally I think this whole conversion thing is silly and stupid! U can’t convert any1. Pple are either attracted to one sex or another, or both. The fact that they hate to admit or recognise the existence of some part of their sexuality does not mean they are str8.

      To suggest smone can be “converted” wld mean to assign sexuality pure on the basis of sex and sex alone.

      • QueerBoi
        June 05, 08:14 Reply

        U’re right ken.. Even tho u didn’t get my point. Case closed.

      • alpha papi
        June 05, 09:20 Reply

        ur a brilliant fellow ken.ur vry correct,all doz who claim to b coverted were just gays in denial.besides dis blue fox guy is useless,confused nd stupid,y’all shldnt take him serious.

        • pinkpanthertb
          June 05, 09:31 Reply

          I’ve finally had it with this guy. Listen asshole, if you know that all you come here to do is throw shades at people and behave like a bitch with no class, then pls stay away. This forum can do without jackasses like you. You’re commending somebody for being intelligent. Perhaps its time you exhibit some of that intelligence yourself. That is, if you’ve got any.

          • lluvmua
            June 05, 10:41 Reply

            Plz can we stop d insults nd hate ??? Thanks. And plz let’s look 4 a way 2 comment without using swear words. Thanks

      • KingBey
        June 05, 10:02 Reply

        Bia this alpha papi, why are you on this blog? Why the Hate? You don’t like what is here, you get the hell out!

  14. blue fox
    June 05, 20:43 Reply

    look here alpha or what ever it is u call ur self. I am a very wrong person to make enemies with. you better ur immaturity. if u wanna play like a spoilt child go do it somewhere else and don’t bring any of that shit near me. I am way out of ur league and obviously more intelligent than you are. And wait, I have more grace, charm and poise than you do (now this is me stating the obvious) as you lack public etiquette; coming out in a public page to wag ur little cowardly tongue at me and to actually think that u’d phantom calling me names makes my skin crawl. Now I am about to serve to you cold, (that doesn’t still bring me to ur level) bitch! move dirty ass away from my corner or I will hunt you down and I will do things that will hurt you so bad you wouldn’t help but adore me for how cruel I could be to you. Be warned.

    • alpha papi
      June 07, 17:59 Reply

      Blue fox pls STFU…u ain’t shit.its obvious u dnt behave normal wen a dick or an object is not inside u,so go shove sumtin inside ur ass(lik yam or stick or dick dt ur addicted to),den u cn say sumtin I cn listen to.ur just a useless bitch…gud 4 notin,u cn only b used in dumpin cum.cum dump whore!

      • lluvmua
        June 07, 18:12 Reply

        Wah d hell is d meaning of all these insults???? I tout we were all mature! Plz let’s stop behavin like kids nd act maturely… Last time I checked this blog was supposed to be for adults nd nt kids or wild persons! Am tired of readin insults n ma fone everytime*whew* *flips hair nd walks away* @andre_hayford

  15. QueerBoi
    June 08, 06:28 Reply

    Whoaaa! Shit just got real.. Tbh alpha papi’s first comment is actually right. Except from the ‘whore’ shit. The dude had a GF. Least you could do was respect that. And then again maturity doesn’t come with age!!!!

    • alpha papi
      June 08, 08:44 Reply

      tnks queerboi…ur head is der.he’s stil a whore anyday…

  16. BnD
    June 09, 13:29 Reply

    wow. nice one. and yeah, why do some of y’all call each other sister?

  17. Deola
    June 11, 22:35 Reply

    Alpha papi you do realise there are ways for you to get your point across without being so aggressive. Some of your comments actually make sense but if you disagree with the writer simply state it. There’s no need for name calling here.

  18. blue fox
    June 12, 06:38 Reply

    WTF! IS wrong with you Alpha? is it just that you are plain stupid or that you are retarded?? Didn’t you read? was I the one who forced him to have sex with me or did he do that of his own accord? Gosh you are such an air head. Go examine yourself, U’ve got some serious issues of self loathing because really that’s the psychological vibe you are sending out. Deal with it fast b4 you destroy yourself @Queer boy Think like an adult and stop reasoning like a 13yr old gay boi who just realized what it means to be gay, how many gay guys don’t have girl friends mscheew!

    • QueerBoi
      June 12, 08:08 Reply

      How many gay guys dnt have girlfriends? Tot d dude u banged was str8. lol. Maybe if u wrote a book or did a film called ‘think like an adult’ I would. Until then.. Dnt u fucking tell me to think like an adult.

  19. blue fox
    June 12, 08:51 Reply

    Queer stop being stupid the point of the comment is this, it’s alright for a gay guy to have a gf, even a wife and still bang his bf but it’s not Ok for me to convert a straight guy who has a lady who he is not even married to? what’s even der to respect. abegi stop the hypocrisy, because fact still remains after all your comments he’s been with me 2yrs and is still with me; He has gf and I have mine and we are very happy. Nothing you say changes that.

      • blue fox
        June 13, 11:20 Reply

        sorry to use that word on you but really u were acting so.

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