Redditor is worried that he’s a ‘straight person pretending to be gay’

Redditor is worried that he’s a ‘straight person pretending to be gay’

A Reddit user is having an identity crisis of sorts, worried that he’s straight despite all the evidence to the contrary.

“So I’m 20, and I’ve known I was gay since I was like 11,” he wrote in a post. “But there’s a part of me that thinks of myself as a straight person ‘pretending to be gay,’ that I somehow convinced myself to be gay when I was 11 because I found a boy attractive one time.”

He continues: “I know this is totally irrational because I’ve been in a gay relationship for 3 years, I regularly have gay sex and enjoy it, and I don’t have any interest in women. But I find it really hard to shake that feeling that I’m just pretending, even though I know it makes no sense.

“And when people say things like, ‘Oh, you don’t seem gay,’ it hits pretty hard and makes me feel really uncomfortable because it brings those feelings back to the surface. Is this just like internalized homophobia or something? Anyone have any tips on how to get rid of it?”

Commenters on the post were quick to point out that homosexuality is not homogeneous.

“Realize that being gay only means you find men attractive,” one wrote. “This notion that you need to act a certain way or not be yourself to fit in with the clique is just plain wrong. You are who you are, there’s no need to feel guilty about it.”

“There’s no stereotypical way to act gay,” added another. “No one suspects I’m gay because they always say, ‘You don’t act gay,’ and that’s stupid. You don’t need to be feminine or flamboyant or run through a room with a rainbow flag.” [Ed. note: Not that there’s anything wrong with that!]

“I think we try to find/identify our community, but we’re not actually a community,” a third commenter wrote. “We’ve created this community, but we’re not a neighborhood or a family or a tribe where belonging is clear and commonalities are obvious.”

Multiple commenters, meanwhile, advised the original poster to seek outside support. “A therapist can help you work through this uncomfortable feeling that you know you want to change but are not sure how,” one wrote.

Perhaps the moral of the story is that we should work harder to separate gender expression from sexuality. Plenty of straight guys are feminine, after all, and plenty of gay guys are masculine.

Take the commenter who says his boyfriend seems “straight AF” at first blush: “His roommates regularly give him shit by insisting he’s only pretending to be gay to fuck with all of them, but then they see me over and hear our (unintentionally) loud sex, and they [get] the picture. And man, if they even knew HALF of the amount of butt stuff he is into, they wouldn’t be having those doubts.”

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  1. Mandy
    October 07, 07:28 Reply

    This is somewhat like the story told in that Ben’s Dilemma, when gay people question their homosexuality simply because they don’t fit into what is expected of gay people to do, or a certain way gay people are expected to behave. Whether it is the response to porn, or how flamboyant (or not so) we are, or how much we loathe (or like) football. There are all these stereotypes that make it hard for those who don’t fit into them and are insecure about their identity, to accept themselves.

    Well, it’s simple to me really. As long as I only do double takes when hot guys walk past and not hot girls, as long as the only kind of sex I find to be a turn on when I think of having it is sex with a guy, as long as I feel very strongly about not marrying a woman – then I’m GAY AS FUCK !!! Every other expectation does not dictate how gay I am.

  2. slenderboy
    October 08, 20:42 Reply

    Niqqa is gay asf, you could be Bi though but dont think for a second that you are on the wrong path. jah bless.

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