My 1000 Forms Of Fear
Writer’s Note: I love Sia. I love her work, and it is because of this admiration that her album title inspired the title of this work. The rest of the work was inspired by the movie, Brokeback Mountain. I’d only just seen the film, and it affected me in ways I couldn’t begin to fathom, except by putting them down in words of poetry.
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They kissed, lightly at first, hesitant,
They were uncertain
They were on an unfamiliar hill, in an unfamiliar kiss, with feelings unfamiliar.
Their foreheads were pressed tightly together, their eyes closed,
They stroked each other’s faces as the passion grew.
They kissed again, deeper and for longer
They shook with fervor as new feelings burned within
I watched them
As they played, fought and fell in love on Brokeback Mountain
The hills, the kiss, the emotions were no longer unfamiliar
They were certain: of whom they were and what they wanted.
They were certain they were in love.
As I watched, I felt a longing so deep that I shook
A longing for certainty, for I was uncertain
Uncertain as to who I was, as to what I wanted
Uncertain as to if I was in love
And even as I kissed him
I remained uncertain
And too afraid to search for certainty
For fear of what I just might find
Written by Chandler Bing
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6 Comments
Mandy
November 12, 06:55‘And even as I kissed him
I remained uncertain
And too afraid to search for certainty
For fear of what I just might find.’
This is a word of advice for this ‘him’ being kissed by Chandler Bing. RUN! RUN for your life! Do not get emotionally entangled with this one, because he sounds like an emotional train wreck waiting to happen.
Peak
November 12, 09:12Mandy! Really?? Like seriously??
All I have for your comment is … “IT’S TIME TO REACH OUT!”
Mandy
November 12, 10:32What are you talking about, Peak? What has cautioning someone against getting involved emotionally with someone else who’s clearly not ready to do with the activism of LGBT communism?
Sinnex
November 12, 07:30Hmmmm
ronniephoenix
November 12, 08:11Hmmmmmm
Andrevn
November 12, 09:41That moment when love stares you hard in the face, but you’re so uncertain you ignore all the signs… And when it’s coming from a supposed straight guy, it just becomes Dilemma of days.
I love this poem. Sincerely I do