Hello Bash,
The last time I was in love was…
I can’t even remember.
Time has passed that I don’t even know what love feels like.
I have seen different versions of love over the years that I don’t even have expectations anymore. One guy said he loved me but slept with my friend. The other one said I am the best he ever had. I wonder why he settled for mediocre.
My first experience with love was surreal. He was perfect for me. Intelligent. Smart. Sexy in a laid back way. Drama free and a terrific kisser. I not only fell for his intellect but for his charm. Everyone loved him and I knew I had found the one.
Or at least I thought I had.
A year later and we broke up. He wasn’t true and lied over and over again. The one I gave my heart to had ripped it in two; leaving me with nothing but pain and heartache. My world shattered and my consolation was cereal and cheesy break-up songs. Somehow I found the courage to let go and move on. And I have been fine ever since.
Have I really?
Yes I have whored around a bit. But who hasn’t? Maybe I have broken a couple of hearts myself. We have all done that? I usually just blamed it on my first love but now I don’t think I should anymore.
There is something about you, Bash. I don’t know what it is and I can’t put my finger on it. Is it the way you smile? Or the way you hold my hand? Or the way you kiss me like your entire existence depends on it. Maybe it’s in our conversations. The way I tease you about your birthmark or the way your signature beans and dodo gives me life. Maybe it is the way you laugh at my dry jokes or how you are quick to apologize even when I am wrong. It is probably how you pay attention to detail or the way you say “I really don’t want to fight right now.” Maybe it’s the sacrifices you made and continue to make for me.
You make me feel a certain type of way, Bash. You make me want to commit. You make me want spend the rest of my life with you. You make me want to be vulnerable with you. You make me want to be a lot of things but I am most thankful that you make me want to be a better person.
I don’t know what love feels like anymore. But if this is love, then I don’t want it to stop.
You are my world. And I hope that I am your world too.
Totally yours,
Tony Odekunle-Brown
Biko who is this bash?
#AskingForChestnut’sPeace OfMind
Heart the ball is now in your court
Bash. The nigga who makes Tony coy and bash-ful.
Lol! I see what you did there
Like he’s the kind of dude that will go in strong and bash the bejesus out of a bujaina? 😀
Dennis,u’re truly a good friend,because my mind has been running amok over this mystery! #iNeedToKnow
Chestnut you know i always look out for your interests and ass-ests! Im a good friend
So much for old school elegance! Vulgar much!!!
Pinkyyyyyy oooo!!!! Tufiakwa gi! Have u no decorum? Ajo nwa!
LMAO! That was a good one
Awwww… you are such a great friend.iLike
Hehehe… He does it so well. You know this Pinky!
Amen oh! That is the prayer
I dont think he is the one
Do you want me to look out for your ass-ests too?
Jeeezus Pinky……you ave spoilt an finish, I wee teh your mummy.
Of course he can’t be. Who wants you to die of a heart attack this morning? 🙂
I’m right here… Anything I can do you for??
*Coughing out ice cubes*
Leave her after now she will be calling me the king of carnality…now who is the queen eh biko?
Haba Toby spoilsport…instead of u to say Awww, sweet and wonderful u go ahead and wanna coz commotion….takyatime dere oo!
No you’re not Mercury you just haven’t found him yet….when you two meet then….sparks!
Why say that?
Saying I’m like you, Lord, is like saying Angel Gabriel and Lucifer have something in common.
Yeah..7. Haven’t felt anything this crazy since then. Been meeting average joes since.. Barely make my hair stand
Ahahahahhahhhahhhhhhaha oh ok…you are the lucifer and am Angel Gabriel..oh so sweet..thanx Pinky Lucy!
Fooling around
Whatever. Just as long as you understand that you and i are nothing alike.
That is actually my fear. I was just telling someone that one of the reasons why a lot of same sex relationships fail is because of the Homophobic Nigeria we live in.
Still, there comes that time when you make the decision to “settle down” with someone because you realise that you are not getting any younger and you don’t want to wake up to the knowledge that you’ve slept with everyone part of the Lagos Gay Community. I think at that point its best to be with someone you like/love.
My thoughts sha
They were angels. That’s one thing they had in common
I see
My heart wants to shout “no”.you do have some things in common. U visit KD.You do things with dicks and assETs
Personalities, Gad. Think your heart can handle knowing that i was talking about our personalities?
Bash, sounds somehow
Well, I hope your heart doesn’t get Bashed this time.
Wait…is dis “THE” Bash,we’re talking about here?(d one that seems to melt everyone’s heart like butter; according to grapevine…I never met him tho,hehe).
#Np Di’ja – Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.
Awwwwwwwwwwwwww! It must be love.I tap from your blessings Brown.
Hian.. Haven’t felt like that in 7 years…
***sips coffee***
Dunno if I could feel this way about anyone, I think I’m weird.
Max?
Biko where is Chizzie
That word sha “I Love u”…..sounds like Good morning to me, what can I do than reply back……Good morning, even when the morning isn’t good,
Max, 7yrs right?
Bash is cheating on you 😉 🙂
right.
Anyways this reminded me of one of my favorite songs. Fleetwood Mac’s You Make Loving Fun.
Sweet.
This is so sweet, I can feel my teeth rot
Wow…. what a beautiful piece … its poignant and heartfelt …question is: do such strong emotions emotions stand the test of time esp in this choking stifling homophobic environment?
Being a huge romantic, I totally appreciate this….have fun TOB, we all deserve it
Chai… I need me a lover too lol.
Beautiful piece, Tony.